It has been a while..

I just wanted to put up one of my journal entries and a verse I read today.

Matthew 10:39
If you cling to your life, you will lose it; but if you give it up for me, you will find it.


I need to live this out dangit!

Please bear with my journal entry, I wrote it while I was half asleep, so it might not make sense but it did to me.

"I seriously need to realize that I have to learn to love God unconditionally before I can love a woman unconditionally, even though God is not tangible it is easier with God because you know for sure that God loves you, you knows for sure everything He has done for you, and you know that He will never ever fail you. Girls, on the other hand, will sometimes not love you, won't show their love or affection or anything, and sometimes, not all the time, they will fail you. Maybe they will cheat on you. Or maybe they will fight with you or get mad at you for no apparent reason. Or maybe they will get mad at you for a good reason because you screwed up somehow. Still, God is the easier one to love because He is perfect in every tiny detail. Perfect is not even good enough to describe His flawlessness. Then, even with how easy God is to love it is still a very difficult thing to continue to do. Our bodies will stray away, along with our minds and our hearts, at the sight of any temptation that seems better than what we have at the time, or looks like it will make us feel better than we are feeling at that exact moment. It becomes easier to fail in loving God because we tend to take advantage of His never ending love. We tend to take advantage of His grace and His son."

As you can see I am going through some issues with love right now.
If you could keep me in your prayers that would be wonderfully appreciated.

Goodnight! :]